Call me Air if you want. I'm in my mid 20s, grew up in Lahore, PK currently in South FL, USA, and work in a very depressing area of the law. I plan to pursue a J.D soon and become an attorney myself. This blog is primarily for my book reviews, essays, writing practice, art, etc. This page is my general 'scrapbook' where I keep everything miscellanious, and a little blog section on life updates. Completed pages are on the sidebar. Enjoy your stay. Email me at ionicinstinct@protonmail.com if you want to get in touch.
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20/03/2026: Birthday! Turning Twenty Five ↓
There won't ever be a year I don't marvel at reaching, sure, but 25 is a number that demands signficance. Quarter of a century, the point where the next decade becomes closer than the last. I think only now I feel as though I have calmed, as if a blockage in my throat and in my heart was finally broken down and swept away in a wreckage that has since been expelled. I feel sure of myself in ways I never did before, in ways I did not think I could be, bolder and more certain.At night, I recited a message to every year of me before and thanked them all. I rewatched Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind with my love. I opened the most lovely present, an ink pen that I hope will be my companian for a long long time. I talked to my brother who called right at midnight despite our timezones. I spent the day sleeping, went out for dimsum with my beloved, to pet the cats in the forest at the park near my home while we narrated our games and stories to one another, then out for a few rounds of Overwatch before we end our subscription at the gaming cafe we play at and never do again.
I have many questions in my heart that I hope to answer to myself through this year. I have many wishes that I will strive to fulfill. I have a need to life by my principles, and find out what that means to me. I have a compulsion to speak and make that has finally stirred after lying dormant for three years now in the blur of daily survival. I hope to never lose it again.
And a happy Eid, Nowruz, and spring equinox as well.
03/10/2025: Moving out ↓
September was vivid, slow, and a flurry of change. Work was good, I studied a lot, and I finally got the clear from my doctor that the health issues I've been dealing with are (hopefully) FIXED! The final crown of this journey was moving out with my fiance from his mom's house - we've still got boxes all over, but it feels like the days have gotten longer ever since. To come back to a quiet home, cook and eat in peace, clean at your leisure, keep clutter out of the way, to go out without questions and come home whenever you feel like it.. These are luxuries I had a hard time imagining. I have never judged myself at the pace of other 20-somethings, because all my life I scarcely dares to hope for something like this.
September 2025
26/08/2025: BLOG START! ↓
It's going to be a slow process making this neocities, but my goals for it are,
making a longer entry blog so i don't have to resort to tumblr (bc that website is pissing me off lately) review books and films i read on here share my art, writing, and projects eventually
August 2025
website to-do
- essays webpage
- monism / religous text exploration webpage
- migrate my revoltionary girl utena essays from tumblr to here
- add gifs and text to navigation page
- fix poetry and art page
- draw headers + 404 page
wikipedia contributions
